I’ve noticed a pattern in my worrying… I’ll find something to panic over, obsess about that for a week, worry at a milder level for another week, and then feel like “everything’s going to be okay” for two to three weeks.
I had felt pretty chill for a couple weeks, and then panic set in as I found a couple small lumps in Jett’s neck. I immediately googled and came to the worst case scenario. Jett’s doctor calmed me down a little yesterday, after checking out the lumps. She said that they were his lymph nodes and that it is completely normal for them to be a little swollen.
She also showed me the spots where it would be a concern to feel swollen lymph nodes… And yesterday when i got home from work, I felt the area, merely wanting to see what it normally feels like, in case I ever notice something unusual in the area. Sounds reasonable, right? Well, maybe not, since I spent a bit too much time poking around at all of the little lumps and bumps in the area. And checking and re-checking to make sure nothing was abnormal (after the doctor said it felt totally normal, mind you)…
Yeah, I’m a little crazy. For my son’s (and husband’s and my) sake, I know I need to chill a little. I just have a hard time finding the line between obsessively worrying and normally worrying… I know many of you have been there before, so if you have any advice, please share!
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